Many Thanks!

I just want to thank everyone, I wish I could do this personally, for all your heartfelt sympathies, words, prayers, and for those people that are always checking in on us. We are so blessed to be surrounded by such love and genuine caring from those around us. We have heard from so many unexpected people and it is truely amazing!

There will be many things that we will learn from this experience, but something we have already learned is how to help people in a time of need. I personally have never experienced death so close to me. I have never lost someone that I have loved so much. I will know how to reach out to others in their darkest hours. The simplist things have such a great impact. Do not think for a moment that the act of sending a card to someone does not impact them. The e-mail here and there to reassure people that they are still thinking of you. Someone sending a magazine or a sweet book. Someone sending something little for the kids. These have all been so wonderful! We are SO thankful. We will pay it forward.

I want to thank all of the people who have been feeding us with such wonderful meals! Since this tragedy we have had non stop meals and will continue to get them until the end of October! Unbelieveable! We enjoy seeing everyone and the kids love to have the 5 o'clock visitor. It has been such a help. The last thing I want to think about is cooking a meal and doing all the dishes. We appreciate it so much!!

I also want to thank my family and Cory's family so being here to help us through. Each one of them has done something very special for us. Our close friends have done and continue to do
so many wonderful things for us...I can't even express my gratitude and I never will be able to properly thank them.

My best friend from high school is flying in all the way from Oregon to be here with us through that first holiday. We are so excited to have her come. I wish it were under better circumstances, but I am sure we will fill ourselves up on fountain pop and a little more retail therapy!

So today's blog is just a HUGE thank you to everyone! Thank you to those who tune in to the blog. Maybe someday this might help someone get through a tough time...maybe someone will know how to help someone through a tough time...who knows.

Tomorrow is going to be a very difficult day for me. My sister and mom/dad were all supposed to come tonight and we'd sit around and bet on if the baby would be a boy or a girl, talk about what he/she would look like and all that excitement leading up to the moment when you finally get to meet that beautiful blessing. Unfortunately, that is not what tomorrow will signify. We plan to do something to celebrate what would have been Beckett's birthday. We plan to visit his grave site and release a few balloons as we did the day we said goodbye. The pain is so overwhelming at times.