Just a few tears shed today...whew! I was wondering if my 6 days of severe sadness would end soon. Glad to know it does here and there.

Grace had her first Christmas program today. She experienced a little stage fright in the beginning, but after her "special" part in the program she started to sing and do some motions. She looked very cute and was very proud of herself. We video taped it for Grandma and Grandpa Oster. The program was filled with nose picking and fidgety preschoolers. It is so funny to watch.

Our family journey through this has been so interesting. I have to say we have come a long way! We are still on the roller coaster with ups and downs. We hits some bad emotional bumps some days, sometimes everyday. So far, through all of the devastation and pain, we are so much closer than we ever were. I am convinced we would not be where we are today without all the great people in our lives. I'd have run away, but I have something to prove. Prove that Beckett wasn't just a stillborn child, but a person who fulfilled a purpose in his short life. I need to prove to my kids that when life gets tough, you have to get tougher. When you get thrown the worst curve ball you could ever imagine, you survive. You'll come out of it learning new things and you need to take that and put it to good use. I have not figured out yet what I need to do with this new information...but I will figure it out someday.

Good luck tomorrow Sherri, you know I will be praying and thinking of you. I pray that this works and I pray for your healing.