Today is Cory's 37th Birthday! He got some great presents from the kids. After he opened then up Grace went and wrapped some more presents...shoes from the closet for all of us!! It does not matter if she is giving you something she picked out at a store or something she dug up in the house...she is SO very proud of herself and genuinely excited for us to open it. So adorable!

Church this weekend was much easier for me. I am not sure why, there was still a lot of talk of baptism (and of course all I think about was Beckett's baptism) and all the new babies in the church. I remember sitting in church the weekend before he died and planning out the baptism in my head. The baptism of my kids has always been a very powerful and emotional time for me. I am guessing all subsequent baptisms will have even more meaning and most likely a few more tears.

I know there are so new readers to this blog, old readers and some I had no idea would even tune in. It means a lot to us to know that people care and are interested. I began writing the blog as a way to release my emotions and keep family and friends updated. I think writing has really helped me move through the grief process effectively. My godmother told me some day I might want to look back and see how far I have come. I can see that so much already. Those first couple of months were so dark and sad. Nothing in life could have prepared me to meet that fate. My family and friends were there to pick us up and walk through those dark tunnels with me. I hope this writing will help someone else in their grief journey. It is going to be a long journey...lots of bumps and falls...but the human spirit wants to keep going. My spirit is pretty strong. So I am thankful for your ears, prayers, and your support.