For those of you who know that Grace enjoys having imaginary friends...she has rounded out those that are the closest to her. There is Bing,Bing (she is the BFF) she has been around for a while. Once in a while her mom and dad come to our house too. Grace let us know that Bing,Bing's mom had a baby and it died. They were sad about it. Broccoli is also in heaven. The there is Nacho, Cheese, and Cereal. These kids are a little more than acquaintances. They were here yesterday and Grace needed to make a 'fence' out of small garbage bags to contain them. I will let you know that I have hurt Grace's friends on occasion. One time I accidentally threw one on the ground. She was sitting on a shoe box top in the car. Boy...did I catch it! I had heard once that imaginary friends were a sign of intelligence, so what does that mean if she has 6? That little girl makes me laugh and sometimes want to cry at all of her antics! Her latest "antic" was taking cherry chap stick and putting it all over the babies face and then she got the butt cream out and put that on her baby, then she had to take almost a tub of baby wipes to clean her 'dirty' baby. I just jumped in the shower for 5 minutes! She will have so many stories for me to tell her when she gets bigger...she will be most famous for running around nakey!

We are heading to St.Michael this weekend for a little R&R and to celebrate Ella's birthday! Holden is so very excited. I always say, "Guess where we are going this weekend?" And it is always followed by "SHERRI'S". Holden is very excited...it is one of his most favorite places to go...even if the pool is not open! He will find out soon enough, though, that he is going to be missing a hockey game and a pizza party:( That will be a heart breaker for sure. I hope to be able to do laundry, clean the house...and sit on the couch and visit:) I'd think about making some meals, but Sherri is a pretty good cook...I am not sure they would eat what I would make.

My little Beckett,

Tear come to my eyes when I think of you today. I was thinking with your dad earlier that you would be almost 3 months old already. Our days would be so different with you here. I really miss what should have been. I look at pictures of babies about your age and I wonder how you would have changed. I am sure you would have been a chunky monkey, maybe even developing some rubber band hands. Our house would be filled with so much more things...instead they are all tucked away. I look into your room and I have this urge just to throw some new paint on the walls...when I look at all the dots on the walls I picture myself just shortly before you were born...taking so much time to perfect them with the smallest paint brushes! It is hard to think of those days leading up to your birth and how I was making all those final preparations for you...on the top of the world...and then poof! We were preparing how to send you off. Ahh...sweet baby, I hope you are flying high, your little wings so perfect. I picture you with those fluffy wings...twirling around...swooping in visiting everyone. I love you little boy. I miss you like crazy.

Fly little wing,
Mommy

I just finished a book that was a compilation of stories of people's encounters with those that have died or those who saw the afterlife but came back to their bodies. It helped me feel that knowing Beckett came to me was not just a figment of my imagination. It was not as grand as some stories...I heard the song glory baby and he spoke just a few words, but I believe he was there. There have also been a few people who told me of things and their experiences with him (Beck). Just further affirmation. I think it is pretty fantastic! I remember when I was just a young kid...my Grandpa John came to me when I was sleeping. He died when I was just a year old. I felt pressure on my leg and I saw him. I had mentioned this to mom and dad some years ago. I am kind of thinking that our baby is with my grandpa...I have been told he loved babies.