Changing the settings must have worked since a few responses came back. Good=)



Here is a visual for your day. Grace and I went to the mall across from where Cory works (he is on the 7th floor). Grace wanted to call him so we could wave to him. So we are outside on the sidewalk. I am carrying my purse and 2 bags and talking on my cell to Cory and Gracie spots Cory and gets very excited. The next few moments we a little blurry. i am not sure why I crouched down, I think maybe it was to be on her level to see her excitement. But, there we were waving and then all of a sudden out of nowhere she barrels into me from the side. I think he intention was to jump on my back, but what happened was mommy went flying. The bags dropped to the ground, I hit my knees...at the same time I was still on the phone with Cory who was watching the whole thing!! From up there it looked like she tackled me and took me down. So of course, I am laughing...Grace is a little shocked...and Cory is laughing. I quick looked around to see if anyone else witnessed this hilarious display-the coast looked clear. I actually fell hard enough to skin my knee. No worries though, we got back home and Grace played doctor and I got a little sab (salve) and band aid. Cory also got one on his forehead before he went back to work after lunch. Good times! It still makes me laugh.

Holden got to play a short (2min) hockey game between a period of the high school hockey team last night. He was SO nervous. I felt bad for him:) However, he was pretty fired up when he was out there. I love to see him so excited about something. The varsity team lined up and the kids skated onto the ice between them...very cool!

I have been thinking this week how different our life would be right now if Beckett were here. He would be 4 months this week. I can't believe that so much time has passed. I can't believe how far I have come emotionally in that time. I am still sad and a bit depressed...but I definitely have more highs than lows. Granted, that can all change rather quickly if I were allowed time to think about Beck without a ton of interruptions. I am so thankful for my children and how they have helped me plow through this. There are times when I do get frustrated and I just want to think about him all alone and with no interruptions. That can be a real challenge...to not get angry when I want to be self-absorbed.