Today is a better day! Yesterday was a pretty low day for me. The rain and cold weather probably did not help the situation either. I actually got sick later in the afternoon. I got pretty worked up and my nerves were reacting. I knew it was bad when I wanted to back out of my weekly night out with my girlfriends. I just did not feel good. I just felt depressed. However, you know the saying fake it until you make it? Well, I put those words into action and I snapped out of it. I told myself I could not cancel on my friends and I psyched myself up to put on a smile and enjoy some time without someone pulling on me or needing me. It worked.

I don't know how it always works out this way...probably because I just have some great friends...but they always seem to know when I need to talk about Beckett. It helped. And the one thing about those particular friends, is that I know that they try so hard to understand how this affects our family each and every day. I appreciate it so much. Not because I want attention or for people to feel sorry for me...that is the last thing on my mind. What I appreciate so much is that they remember our little boy. They keep his spirit alive. That is what touches me. That is what I appreciate. He is not forgotten. As long as I live this life, he will be alive in me.