Raise your hand if you are excited for Liv's birthday? ME! ME!

I can't believe our baby girl is going to be turning one! I think back to about this very time last year and how I was so desperately struggling to keep myself sane. No kidding. I went in for the amnio and the results not good. The second amnio a week later...not good. It was an incredibly low time for me. I was sick with fear. My anxiety level had reached an all time high (obviously I looked the part too because my doctor was a little concerned about my mental health). Well, I am not mental this year! This year my heart wants to leap out of my chest. I am bursting with gratitude and love for my baby girl. I feel like we are approaching a huge milestone that I was never sure would come. It is exciting. It feels wonderful.

Liv has really been showing a lot of personality. She is so darn cute...I can't get enough. I will notice her naked toes when she is sitting in her high chair and I must nibble on them. When she flashes her smile I need to squeeze her. When she starts flapping her wings in excitement, I need to scoop her up and plant kisses on her. I am just so in love with this little human being.

She is a stinker...into EVERYTHING. If there is a cupboard, she opens it. If there is a bin of toys or laundry, she will thrown each item out one by one. If something resembles food on the floor, it is in her mouth in a flash. If she is quarantined to a space, she will protest. If there is a magazine, she will rip it. If there is a toilet near by she will try and swish her hands in the water. If there is a garbage, she needs to look inside. If there is a computer, she needs to try and rip they keys off the board (I am currently missing my Y, arrow key, and enter button). If there is a baby in eye sight, she must be next too him/her. Loosing Beckett, has given me the patience to take everything in stride. If I start getting a little frustrated, I always stop and think about Beckett and what I would not give to have him here and everything seems so trivial. What a wonderful gift from our little guy.