I got to spend 24 hours away from home to scrapbook with a few friends this weekend. What a great way to busy my mind with fun stuff. Not to mention, we were on a lake with all the leaves turning brilliant colors. It was SO beautiful! Peaceful.

When I got home, the kids and I decided to go out and play in the leaves. Of course, Holden complained the minute I brought out the camera. I told him someday you will want pictures of yourself. Your future kids will want to see what you looked like. I told him it made me sad that I have no pictures to scrap of him because he always looks away from the camera. I guess those were magical words and I got a few photos of him, but he was still self conscious:) My children are the great loves of my life. Here are a few photos of our time together.

Liv loved the leaves!! The kids were hilarious in their goggles to keep leaves out of their eyes.

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Tomorrow is October 4th. Two years ago, on that day, we finally got to hold the little baby we longed to meet. Two years ago, on that same day, we had to say goodbye to a little angel. It was the hardest day of my life. I will never overcome the trauma of that day. I will never forget that crushing pain in my chest. I will never forget the endless tears that rolled down my cheeks. I will never forget the emptiness I felt when they walked him out of our room. I didn't know how I would pick up and move on...