I received the news around 1:30 today that the amnio came back with not so great news. Baby K is no where near ready to be born. It is not on the "immature" radar. I can't even begin to put into words how hearing this news made me feel. I tried to prepare myself for the unlikely possibility that our baby would not be ready. However, I have failed that attempt as my reaction to the news clearly shows. Our baby got a lung maturity of 12. That is severly low in medical terms. 40 is considered "immature". I am not sure what kind of number means mature but I believe it is above 60. So, we have a long way to go. I was given 2 options-neither which I liked-but I have choices. I could either get a series of steroid injections and repeat amnio with possiblility of delivering on Friday the 28th or wait until 39 weeks to deliver. Hmmm...I am going crazy each day that passes. Each day feels like another step closer to death.
We opted to go for the steroid injections, which I have gotten the first shot just an hour ago. Let me tell you this hurt!! I'd rather have an amnio. When we went in this morning I really nervous. It went pretty quick and was undoubtly uncomfortable but not painful. The shot in the butt was way more painful. In fact I am sitting on an ice pack right now. My doctor is shocked by the number, as well as the perinatalogist. But, she says it does not mean anything is wrong. Our baby just happens to fall into that small percentage of babies that are not ready. I think steroids are the way to go though because if I happen to go into labor naturally I am concerned on how the baby will fair without a little help. This is my 4th child so anything can happen.
I am definately beyond disappointed. I am feeling pretty awful. I just don't understand why God would put us through all of this. I know having a healthy baby is what we want more than anything, but right now it is a little hard to digest the news. We are not even close. Why? I just feel so abandoned...left to suffer. Not only do we need to worry about loosing the baby...we need to worry about the baby's lung health.
Thanks for all the support and prayers! I guess put them towards the following week, I guess.
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Holly what a disappointment that baby isn't ready to meet you yet. The good news is that you know he/she is safer growing inside you.
I realize no words will put you at ease, but once again, know that many people are praying for you.
Take care and btw, you look great!
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