I took the time to send the dreaded e-mail to the monument company today! Big step. Cory's mom is friends with the people who own this place so hopefully it will make things a little easier. I wonder how much a person can write on a head stone? So many things I'd want written on that stone but trying to narrow it down to only a few is tough business! Obviously, we will unanimously decide...fun conversations to have.

I feel that seeing the new life inside of me yesterday has sparked an emotional roller coaster. All I can think about is Beckett. In a sense that is comforting...the new baby in no way diminishes his spot in our life. This new baby is not a replacement (never was meant to be or could possibly be). I kind of wondered about that. Nothing has changed. I am still a grieving mother.

There is a glimmer of excitement for the newest addition. This baby is definitely wanted. I will fight to get this baby here safely. I just have such a different perspective. I am so glad everyone else is so hopeful for us!

Correction for my family members, the perinatologist appt is next Wednesday...obviously a little pregnancy brain.