Happy Mother's Day

Happy Mother's day to all of you mothers out there!

We were very lucky to have had some visitors this weekend to celebrate Mother's Day. The mothers cooked a fabulous meal:) And we cleaned up too...hmm. A highlight of the day for me was making a vision for Beckett's garden and then accidentally starting to see it come to fruition! Mom and dad just started digging and moving plants here and there. We rearranged some of my previous flower beds to make room for Beck's garden. It looks fabulous already and we are not even done. I don't want to post pics until it is completed. The bird bath fountain is up and running and I just love it! It is peaceful and it looks so good. My aunts and uncles and some cousins from my Schneider side purchased it for us. Fountains always remind me of baptism and I will think of Beck's quickie baptism on that night. It was such a beautiful moment, sad, but memorable. They also sent me some money to purchase a tree. The spot is cleared and the hole is dug! Now...we just have to find the perfect tree. It will be a great moment when our family plants that tree. Thank you to all the Schneider's for pulling together and making that happen. In his garden will be a little of us, a little of our families and a little of our friends...perfect. Very symbolic. One of our friends dropped off three garden stones with inscriptions on them in remembrance on the 6 month anniversary of his birth. They look great floating in the fountain. Another Schneider family had made us a beautiful garden stone with a tiled angel and his name inscribed. When I find it...it will be in the garden too. I moved it during the flood to a safe place which I have since forgotten:) I know it is here somewhere! We also have a wind chime that will get a special spot. Thank you to everyone for those thoughtful gifts in honor of our baby Beckett.

I miss him today like any day. His absence so prominent. I wish I could have been a mother to him for his whole lifetime. It is hard to be separated from your child. It is hard to accept the hand that has been dealt...especially on days like these.